|Another Day, Another Dollar
||[Dec. 26th, 2008|08:26 pm]
outgrow.I've always taken for granted that I was going to outgrow many things, especially many teenage things. That's what you do, right? You drop all those hormonal teenage insecurities after a while and grow into being an "adult." You learn, you grow, and you |
What a bunch of bullshit.
I can read old journals and point at certain lines and say, "I'm still afraid of that." "I still fear this." A couple of years has changed nothing in that regard, not the feeling itself nor the intensity in which the feeling is felt. It's just a bunch of bullshit, like many of the "adult" concepts.
I still feel insecure, and I still have this feeling of fear. It hasn't changed.
No matter how many years pass, I'm still terrified that I'm going to die alone, and no one will care.